Blame HBO on a night at 3 AM for this one.
Emo time. Click here to go elsewhere.
Ever feel like apologizing to the world, but you aren’t exactly sure for what you are apologizing? I’m moody. I’m not motivated. Pretty much miserable. Well, sorta.
I’ve made a new set, only to have it stall on my lack of motivation. (I know one person that will seriously kick my ass if she reads this, and deservedly so….sorry you.) I’ll get around to finishing it - one of these days.
My RL is in utter chaos ATM, details of which aren’t necessary here, but it all plays a part in this huge thing of the mood. I’ve had friends respect my wishes to stay distant recently….or they’ve accepted it. To be perfectly candid, I can only call maybe three people ‘close’ friends, and to an outsider’s view, those would be interpreted as ‘acquaintences’. That’s actually fine for me. I’ve decided I am jaded for the most part. If I let you in, congrats. No one gets in.
Been a crazy week. I’ve been listening to this song over and over. Not even sure why. It’s relaxing. I can close my eyes and just drift off elsewhere. I seem to need that escape.
SL’s become a ball and chain. A necessary evil. Multiple things are demanded of me from many directions, and sometimes you feel like you want to just say screw it, time for just me…then realize just you bores you and everyone around you. that’s been the case this week. I’m a boring guy I suppose.
Do you ever get used to the status quo? I suppose that’s the essential definition of complacency. It blinds you from other people’s attempts to make you happy. Ironically, at the same time, the negatives in things are amplified tenfold.
Jaded.
I’ve tossed aside trust for the most part. There’s too many here who can’t have it. Heck….we all have issues with it, myself included. I was speaking to a friend today and found out some history I would rather not have known. Trust kicked in, and well…yeah.
Do I have a point now? If so, I’ve forgotten it. I’m not even sure if this makes sense. This begs the question however, what do I want….?
A cure for male PMS.
“And then I looked up at the sky, and saw the sun…and the way that gravity pushes on everyone. On everyone.”